--- In BAD_MD@..., "andydoolan" <andydoolan@t...>
wrote:
>hi

your post caught my attention because my ex boyfriend was a chef and
suffered bi polar. HE didnt know he had it but he did (compulsive
lying, spending, extreme unfaithfulness, over confident/ low
depression, highs and lows)Oh and not keeping a job.

i am wondering if it it triggered by bad diet through working long
hours. he would go days by surviving on a mars bar a day and smoking
tons. He ate nothing but crap and didnt sleep much either??????

alixxxxxxxxxx
> i'm Andy, 5 and a bit years ago i took ill was a chef working 70
hr
> weeks had a sort of break down was seeing and hearing things very
low
> anxious and not sleeping. Anyway this is the first site that i
thought
> i should use not sure wat to write tho so i'm just gonna tell bit
bout
> me if that's cool?
> at that stage of my life i was absolutely terrified of wat was
> happening to me. went to my g.p bout the insomnia and depression
too
> scared to mention my psychosis tho. g.p tried around 6 anti
> depressents which as u will all know takes time a long time! family
> had moved me back home as i couldn't take care of myself and my
> girlfriend couldn't cope. my 2nd week my mum demanded that i saw a
> psychiatrist was taken up to the local psyche ward the doc said i
was
> "SCARED OF LIFE" and prescribed beta blockers! fuc*%g idiot!
needless
> to say i was upset started self harming that night went too far mum
> found me passed out in the morn rushed to a&e then admitted to the
> psych ward. hadnt spoken thru this untill have been told these
were my
> only coherent words muttered when the same psych came to asses me i
> said to the charge nurse if the doc didnt leave i'd rip his head
off
> luckily the nurse was good and transferred me. Anyway i,m ranting
was
> in ward fopr 3 mnths had ect not nice experience although i did
repeat
> it a yr later. in and out the ward 6 times now. Diagnosed with,
> depression first then psychotic dep when i finally came clean with
the
> psychosis stuff. just under 2 yrs ago was having really bad mood
> swings got into bad debt spending like crazy sooo much energy sooo
> happy toooo confident. then a day or even a few hrs later the dark
> raincloud would fall and i'd burst into tears no matter where i
was!
> Was takenin again diagnosed bi polar (rapid cycling)started on mood
> stabilisers (on 2 now)along with my anti psychotic and the to date
> only anti depressent thats worked on me. That's been over a year
now
> i'v started to get my life back with the fantastic help of my
> psychologist and cpn, im starting a ou course soon i'v been clear
of
> hospital, unfortunately i lost my g/f altghough she's a great
friend
> now. i'v found that one of the worst things about it all is the
> enormous appetite increase i used to be a strong fit rugby player
now
> i'm fekin 24 st! oh and another is the fact it caused me to be so
self
> centered hurting my friends and family was a past time activity.
> well i'v been stable for a year now starting to try and put myself
> out there again i have brill mates and family stood by me where
many
> wouldn't but they all have lives of there own. i live alone and get
> lonely and bored. aww! but if anyone out there actually makes it to
> the bottom of this posting without crashing out please let me know
wat
> u think? how have you made new friends?
> if u managed it thanks for reading
> Andy
>