Sounds like a good name for a song (or something like it).

OK, I shouldn't be here. I've not be diagnosed with AS. However, part
of me thinks I should be. Part of me thinks I'm just no good at
managing my life and I've a childish inability to manage my feelings.

I'm 40 years old. I got onto the idea of AS watching "Waking The
Dead" the other night. They had this AS character, and they referred
to his relationships being all or nothing. That struck a chord. I've
been going to psychotherapy for a while, and that's an area my
therapist has been trying to address. Along with my fear of being
ripped off by all organisations I've come into contact with, my lack
of sympathy with authority and a few others. Then my wife told me
that my two years ago my (now) five year old had been referred by the
playgroup for various behavioural issues about mixing. Apparently, as
the Health Visitor went through her AS Checklist my wife's replies
were all "No, he doesn't do that, but my husband does".

Half of me sees AS as a reason for why life has been the way it has,
the other half says I just need a good kick up the rear to grow up a
bit and stop being so spoilt.

I'd like to know what I should do next.