I've just joined and i'd like to introduce myself. I'm 23 and i have
Asperger's syndrome, well i'm shure i have. I'm not diagnosed
actually, but theres no doubt from my point of view, tha I have one.
Im one of those kids who grew up just not knowing whats wrong with
them. i was different from other all the time. But then I just thought
tham i am simply dumb person, who doesn't know how to talk with
people. But about a year ago i eventualy understood that I'm an aspie.
I went to psychologist to get confirmation and he said, that I'm most
likely to have it, but actaly getting diagnosis would be difficult
couse I don't actaly fit the descripsion. But personaly I think thats
becouse those criterias ar written for chindren. For example hand
clappind and stuff.
But I still have some doubts, so I would like to ask you some
questions about aspergers:
First do you really can't understand body languadge and face
expresions? Don't take it personally, but this thing sound a bit
silly. I mean, I've read that if they show pictures to small children
and they can't understand some emotions. But I can't understand how an
adult person can't do it. I have no problems in this area, so that is
one of the problems getting official diognosis.
And all this thing sound a bit stupid. Basicly scientist only car
about children and all the books and articles are about children.
What, all those autistic children don't grow up, don't become adults?
They propably disappear? What if human grows up and no-one really
bothers is he autistic or not - they simply ignore him. Thats what my
life was. No-one cared why I was so shy and withdrawn, and why i was
so strange that nobady understood what i was saying or wanted to say.
Second thing is all that obsession for numbers, dates and classifying
everything. Whats that about? Do all aspies have that. i personaly
don't. Actually I hate numbers, i hardly can remember my phone number,
so if someone asks me for it, i have to look it up. I am hopeless at
math and stuff and I have never in my life cared of categories of
things or spiecies of animals. I just love my dog and i really don't
give a shit about what sort of bread he is.
but don't think that I differ from you. I don't like people much.
Comunicating with them is a torture. I always say stuff that i
should't and others simply wonder how stupid I am. I find situations
when people expect me to say or do something, but I don't know what
they want from me. Plus I have dispraxia, I stick to routines, like
being alone and not talking with people. I'm also extremely shy. That
is also a difference from typical aspie, becouse i've read that people
with Asperger's syndrome don't actually fear people even in situations
where thay should. Peronaly I have problems in social situations. I
feal anxiety, and that is what acording to scientist isn't typical.

So basicly I want someone to write me am I really an aspie, or I am
just siplme looser:)