I had once have a dream to study accupuncture. It involves something about the theory of using human energy lines to ease or even cure illness. The closest term to modern medical science would be triggering lymphoma system to extract something to fight diseases. That kind of study sounds cool to me, especially when modern medical science failed to cure my brother's leukemia (blood cancer). The modern medical science rely on something that destroy cancer thing (in reality there's not that much different betweeen cancer thing and your own body), but it just prolong his life, and the process is very painful.

So I got this opportunity from my mother, and the one who pay for tuition is my other brother. And so I took a flight to one of the country where the study of accupuncture is famous. There are four country that have advance study of this accupuncture, which is China, Japan, Korea, and French. I got the opportunity to go to China. And the university I go isn't majoring in medical science. I had to study the language first, which is Chinese language. My own nationality is Indonesia.

In China, I lived at dormitory. And I got roommates, they are from the same country as I am. Let's just say I got two roommates, Puff and Ted. And there are one more that took the same dormitory but different room, let's just called him Leo. So there are Puff, Ted, Leo, and me. Puff, Ted, and Leo are the only names I'll use in this story. There are seniors that study there, even they are seniors doesn't mean they are older than me. There are some that younger than me, and it's not because they are genius or exceptional, but because they took the language course at younger age than myself.

Seems like the seniors have exceptional friendship with black coloured skin, maybe because Indonesian people's skin is also kind of light black coloured. These people have the custom to drink at bar, and not just drink, they seek for drink until they're drunk. At first, because I'm newcomers, I got a little drunk, but I somehow managed not to be drunked so I can find my way to the dormitory. Puff has got so drunk that he have to deal with university's security for lying around the school park. My impression of them is they are a bunch of drunk seekers, I don't even want to know what will happen if they have become so powerful with alcohol and seek another means to get drunk. So I tend to stand away from them as far as I could and just have ordinary conversation with them.

There's one time, Leo and Puff told me something that is very disturbing. That's the story about a beggar who had skin disease near the computer store. They think that that beggar should just be dead. They said that government should eradicate all beggars like that, put them together in a place than burn them to death. The beggars has no used and they should just dead because they will just bring trouble to anyone else. Their theory is make sense, but I think only inhuman things would do that even to beggars.

Later on, there are people from Thailand. These people isn't that much different from Indonesian people. They tend to spend their time lurking around with their own fellowship. Ted is the one who spend his time alot with these people. But Ted is somekind of drunk seekers too, I find it out not long after a few feast. Ted got a principle to get afriend with anyone, good or bad. This principle is not bad, but in the reality he became somekind of what a politician do, he lies alot. There's this time when the fellowship from Indonesia spend the whole night until the morning at karaoke place to celebrate one's birthday. When we got home, Ted's friends ask about his whereabouts and he lied. I got the impression that Ted feel that what we do all night to celebrate one's birthday is wrong. Even when we spend the night at seniors' house to celebrate one's birthday, he also tends to lie. It's just like what politicians do when there's somekind of election, but I don't even know what kind of election is that.

When one semester is over, I got an award for something. I don't think I deserved for it because I'm still a novice in my language skill, that's why I tend to give the award to a friend that help me in a way that he always talk to me, that guy is from Laos. I kind of force him to accept it, but after all he always better at talking. But Ted and the fellowship from Thailand seems not satisfied with this in a way. They always questioned why I got this award and even brought the seniors to this matter. I'm not the one that have information about this award, so why bother asking to me, I just have opinions that's not really relevant with this matter. And when I started to avoid him, he starts various rumors about me and when he met me he said "Are you suicidal, sorry just joking". My impression with Ted is a power seeker, he tends to do a black campaign. He'll do everything to make himself appear as what everybody want to see, even that means he'll sacrifice his fellowship.

And there's Leo. He's a playboy, no doubt at that. He's dating girls, like drinking, go around every corner of the city. There's not much of him, but he made a mistake when dating girls. He tries to make two girl as his girlfriend without making these two know his intention. One of the girl know his action because Puff told her. Puff's reason is he don't want his sister share the same fate as the girl, but the action Puff do afterwards doesn't share the same idealism.

And there's this religious Arabian that comes from one of the holy city for Moslems or Christians. At first he study very hard because he told me that he don't have the chance at his own country. Days after days his language skill is not improving much. Then he began to do something out of the ordinary. He met a hooker from internet chatting. He went to Hongkong to meet her and he do the thing you know what more than once. When he went back to the dormitory, he complain that his reproduction organ is hurt for doing you know what too much with the hooker. He even show me the photo in his handphone which consist of the picture between him and the hooker. And at another occasion, he told me that he and Ted went to a place where they met a beautiful hooker. He said that hooker has a pretty face, but the body is nothing. He even said that Ted did you know what first to the hooker, then he did the hooker afterwards. And he told me about it. My impression, this is the transformation from religious being to something I don't even imagine before.

And there's these Vietnamese. My first impression is I should avoid them for various reasons. First reason is the same reason why I avoid black coloured skin people, they are drunk seekers. The second reason is they like barbeque. There are no harm with barbeque, but it's believed that black burnt mark from barbeque trigger cancer cell. I avoid barbeque because I avoid cancer. Third reason is because they kind of remind me of motorcycle gang. There are no harm with motorcycle gang, until they make troubles. Some of them ask a girl that already have boyfriend to be his girlfriend, some of them group at outside dormitory and just sit around the public area, etc.

And there's Puff. He was a member of motorcycle gang before, and I'm not sure if he still a member of it. He kind of already make a confession that he had done a criminal activity before. He snatched a purse from a lady that's walking on the streets and ran with the purse. He used a motorcycle that was rode by his other crimininal friend. The way he told the story was somekind excites him. He also told that he did that because of the pumping heartbeats when he did that. Puff also got a girlfriend in Indonesia, chase after other girls at dormitory, finally got a Chinese. He took the Chinese girl back at dormitory and slept with her at the same room as I did, the girl walking around with no pants in the morning (I don't know what Puff think about his sister fate when he did that, because he definitely think about his sister fate when Leo did that). He also did a vandalism. He broke an ornament of a giant dragon head that is big and very heavy. The ornament injured his leg and he ran away. When the incident happened, my fellowship that consists of students from various country was also there. My fellowship was detained for what Puff did for almost an hour. We didn't say a word to the official because we are guests from another university and we thought this incident would be disastrous if we told the truth. And in one occasion, I think he's the one responsible for stealing my money, we'll get to that later on.

And there's the school people which are called teachers. There're alot happened with the so called teachers. At first, the students protest about the study material that kind of weird. It's between beginner class and intermediate class. The material of beginner class is half to easy for most of the class, and half of it is some kind suitable for them. The material of intermediate class is half suitable for them and half of it is too hard for most of the class. The student ask if there is somekind of a class which can be opened, which is consists of only the suitable material for them. The school stay on its foot with the unsuitable classes. Maybe some of us think about going half here half there, but the schedule just not fit, and the room isn't adequate to place two class at the same time. So there are times where the room is empty with just a few people. I go along with the school people and stay in the empty classroom. These days I'm befriend with a girl because he stay in the empty classroom too. She kind of excellent in Chinese language, maybe because she's Japanese, and the language between both of them have many similarities, so I kind of depend on her. And the rumors start spreading, that she is my girlfriend, which is not. If because one depend on the others consider as that kind of relationship, I would have alot of older girlfriend (teachers come first in my mind). I already explain to anyone that ask me about this, and they all said "Yeah, right". The Japanese girl already had boyfriend in her hometown, and everybody think I want to be her second boyfriend. I'm with her because of her excellency in the language and I have no intention to walk away from my path of study. One thing that makes me disappoint with the teachers are they're also into this. There are one time that this girl doesn't come to school and the first thing came across the teachers is I have something to do with it. The tone they have isn't questioning tones, but accusing tones (it's obvious because doesn't come to school have many reasons). That experience left me the impression that this school people which are called teachers are not motivator to teach, they just some gossipers and rumors spreaders that give study material under the cloak of the teachers profession. If going to school is to learn how to gossip and spread rumors instead of studying, then I don't want to be a part of it.

And there's the dormitory people. At first they stick to the rules, later on they became somewhat not appropriate. There's this one time when people from Indonesia held this party with alcoholics at the dormitory, invites several people from outside dormitory, men and women. The party held until past midnight, without dormitory people intervention, even the teachers who lived at the dormitory are not able to stop the party. Even after the party is over, there are several people from outside dormitory that stayed in the dormitory. Several people even smuggling women to their own rooms (like Puff's Chinese girlfriend and there are others). There were also times where several people going home past midnight, they're either open the dormitory key, call someone to open the window from the inside and climb up to the window, etc. These incidents still happened even the dormitory already got security camera installed all over the dormitory, so I don't think the dormitory didn't know about this. Maybe they have somekind of business from smuggling people inside the dormitory, I wonder what kind of business. At first I think thats someone else's business and I'm not a part of it, until one occasion happen to me. I was called by my Laos friend to play in his room. I don't know what's his intention but everytime I ask for a leave to go back to my own dormitory which is at another building, he's kind of holding me. And finally the time comes when the dormitory door locked. I kind of have a feeling that something might happen, so I decide to jump out from the window. The window itself got kind of 3-4 metres height. The next morning the dormitory people asked if I stayed a night in the dormitory. My impression is they kind of planning to lock me up in the dormitory for some reason. There are other dormitory guy who said that they do this to ask for fined money. Who knows. And there's one time when people from dormitory scheming something again they kind of guard the first and second floor. I break the glass from the third floor, in case there are something happen, so I can somehow struggled for my survival. Maybe they think I dare to jump from first or second floor, but the third floor is not an option for me. Whether I'll jump or not is not really thinkable at that time, but a person with glass shards near a balcony would make people think twice to mess with. I clean up the glass with my bare hands to see the situation and there are nothing that particularly happen afterwards, but the dormitory people fined me for the glass I broke. Is the dormitory people scheme something to collect money? Is that the way they got money from? I just have the impression that the dormitory people are scheming something.

And there's this occasion that I consider as criminal activity. The occasion began when the first semester has finished. The dormitory somehow manipulate the amount of money that should be paid to stay during the holiday. At one time they said A, tomorrow they said B, the next day they said C. I kind of get mad with their attitude, so I decided to leave the dormitory. I lived in my family house at the same city but I never intend to live there before. When I unpacked my things, I realized that some of my money is gone (I packed my money into different places, kind of traveler things). I rechecked my baggage again and it's gone. Several things come across my mind, did I left it at the dormitory when packing, did I drop it, did someone opened my baggage, or did someone stole it? Bottom line, the money has gone and I have to live with that. So I lived with the amount of money I have. So I just lived my life and move on. My money is still sufficient to live and continue my study at language. And the life goes on, and on until one day I discover something that really disturbing. Puff who is my roommate went to Hongkong to do something, so I decided to clean up the room. When I clean up the room, I found my lost money, complete with my notes about its serial number. This is kind of involved something with timeline so I'll describe this with flashback.

The room is somehow divided into three individual bed, I already mentioned before that my roommates is Puff and Ted. Ted was moving to another university after the first semester, leaving Puff and myself. The dormitory somehow did somekind of manipulation maneuver, so I got out of the dormitory. I got back at the second semester and lived at the same room, but my bed is kind of switched with Puff. I didn't know the reason but Puff insists to take the bed I previously occupied. I gave up my previous bed and choose another one. So we got one extra spot, because the room was intended to be placed by three person. Puff make some layout changing with the room, picking some furniture to his place, and placed the leftovers somewhere else inside the room. He unpacked his things, because he also not staying in that room during the holiday. Later he also used the leftovers furniture to put his things. Then one day Puff got something and went to Hongkong. I clean up the room and found my lost money inside the extra furniture. Puff wasn't using the the whole part of the extra furniture, so I decided to clean up there. It's a cabinet that have three parts, upper, middle, and bottom. The middle part is kind of exposed. The upper part and bottom part have its own doors. He's not using the bottom part and it's not locked anyway. So then I found my lost money and feel really disturbed. I thought that moment, he have all the time to redecorated the room, choosing his furniture, and not realized the money is there and not even say a word. The very same furniture is originally placed at the same spot as his bed, so he should already checked that furniture.

I don't know what I felt at that moment, but I try to deal with it by consulting this matter to someone I know won't make things worse that it already has. I told Puff about this matter and he just said he know nothing about it. I lost my mind that day but I know that I should forgive anyone because I'm a Buddhist and know the karma works on its own. I always try to forgive him, but his attitude still shows nothing about this matter. He even told something to everyone that making me as a swindler. I still try to forgive him no matter what happened because I really believe karma works on its own. And that just when my days got worse and worse. Right now I believe I have met evil with no remorse.

Days by days got worse, but I try to live with it just by my faith. I actually decided to tell the school official about this matter, and I think that's the moment when this matter become international affair. I went back to Indonesia through Hongkong and along the way I feel like I'm being terrorized. I plan to went back to Hongkong to look for a job and somehow try to learn something about accupuncture nearby. I still feel I'm being terrorized. At one occasion there is someone tap my back. That time I'm using a backpack and I definitely looked like a tourist no matter how you looked at me. I'm waiting to cross the street, and someone asked something to me. The chinese language itself have more than one meaning, and many possibilities. The first possibility is asking for a supermarket. The second possibility is asking for a place to seek trouble. The third possibility is asking for a place to seek death. I just answer that question with simple phrase that I don't know. But I still believe that karma works on its own, and try to stay as long as I can to study there especially accupuncture.


Is my experience shows that people shouldn't forgive everyone? Do I have to protect my family and friends by hurting other people? There are times when I feel to put away my faith and just join to be a devil myself. Is that a normal thing to become a devil and it's not normal to forgive each other? Are people really tends to make each other an evil? I really don't know the answer of that question.