hi my name is sarah and 19 years old and on the 18th october 2002 my
fiancee was taken away from me by a horrific car crash that his so
called mates caused. was he dead or dying when they left him? alone
on that lonley road in the dark? why did it take so long to find
him? why did people just drive on by? 2 hrs passed and he's still
there this time dead and alone waiting for someone. then a car a
post man on his way to work he finds my love slumped over wheel.
rings 999. then the waiting. 8hrs to find his parents then me 2 hrs
later. the hard thing is we went to identify him he looked so
peacefull. why did he go? how could he leave me all alone? then the
waiting again. waited 2 months for the funeral due to the police
investigation. then christmas carrying on regardless. why does
nobody understand i don't want it just doing it cos it's normal. why
was he taken b4 our wedding? the pain hurt more when going around
everywhere having to cancel what should hve been the happiest day of
my life. trying to explain through the tears but i had to go on! i
feel so alone as i seem to be coping on the outside by inside i'm
loosing control. my thoughts are of him constantly and my tears
never seem to finish.now more waiting for the inquest for the
trial. me have to be strong to make them pay for what they did but
can i stay strong forever? the reality seems unbearable and
sometimes is so un belivable but other times it all too true.