hi every1 hope u r doin well. im not doin well myself. do any of u
just feel like REALLY lonely everyday which makes u feelin really
depressed. i always feel this.i think im actually lookin for some1 to
love me :( but i cant even go out with any1 cause of this bloody ocd.

i just sit in the house all day like a bloody hermit. sometimes i
dont mind it but mostly i do. im actually sometimes scared of goin
out jusst thinkiin of wat might happen and things. and one thing
that does freak me out is men (sorry any males readin this) its just
that i dont trust them. And if im out in a club or somethin and one
of them dances with me i just feel totally dirty and disgusting like
u have been phyisically raped. i no thats an awful thought to feel
but i just cant help it. i dont even no were it came from cause i
have never been sexually abused or raped.

i just feel like cryin all the time and just sleepin in my bed all
day.

thanks for listen to whoever reads this
im gonna go now
bye
luv amy